Broken things and New beginnings…

3 years ago, I had a moment, a moment where I hit rock bottom… I was spiraling out of control, I’d let my corporate stress consume me and I was lost, I wasn’t sleeping, I genuinely think I wasn’t far off a complete breakdown or I was actually in the middle of one, I was feeling all the physical effects and my emotions were on a knife edge at all times.  I think it was at this point where I realised I was trapped which made it so much worse.  Like most of us, I had debts, a mortgage, and a family and I clearly didn’t have the ability to go ‘screw it’ Life’s too short for all this BS.  I felt broken and trapped.

At this point something odd happened, I was offered and then denied a small bonus, a tiny amount of money but to me, it caused a cascade of things to happen, the initial dark response and outrage stayed for a bit (I’m really good at raging at things, really good!) and then I hit a moment where I awoke, not in a religious sense but in a me sense…  Someone who I can’t recall said ‘this job doesn’t define you’ and that little phrase spoke to me.  All the stress, worry, and concern had wiped out my confidence, it had eroded my curiosity, and sadly robbed me of my ability to look at a situation and see the good in it. This job doesn’t define you; it doesn’t own you, it’s not you, you are you and you are capable of so much more – It. Isn’t. You.

As the shutters came up and the funk started to lift, I opened my mind to my options to resolve the situation, I made lists of potential career changes and other ways of making money. I tracked every penny I was currently spending to understand our net worth, outgoings and started to educate myself on anything I didn’t understand.  I’m a lists blackbelt, no, I’m a list god and I used this skill to apply it to every aspect of my life.  The outcome - I felt in control again, just like Neo, I could see the matrix and I wanted out!

I now knew what I wanted, put simply, was freedom. Freedom from finance and debt. Freedom to sleep and not worry so hard I was physically sick. Freedom from the 9-5, from the corporate world…. and I wanted to own something, just one thing, house or the car – not much to ask was it..  Whether you like it or not, there is an element of society that follows a pattern, school, uni, career and along with that comes a family, a 25 year minimum mortgage and various other debts…. I was happily working my way along that path until the path beat me up! Now I was going to make my own path, I was going to owe no-one, I was going to own that asset, I was going to have that money cushion that meant I wasn’t stuck and I wanted it all – I was going to have my cake, more cake and still keep my abs!

Fast forward 3 years later and this blog was formed.. I am now filthy rich and my 3rd assistant is writing this whilst I sunbathe on my yacht……  Okay, so that’s BS but I am now in a very different place, I moved jobs, I have savings, I have no debt apart from the mortgage and I want more.  I’ve been loving educating myself in various ways from writing courses, reading books on business, self-improvement and all sorts of weird and wonderful areas whilst also achieving various professional technical certifications and I’m not done.  Now my goal is to carve out a new future for myself and my family, I’ve educated myself long enough, and its time to take the plunge and see what I can do, success or failure its time to jump into various sectors and simply try new things… you never know one might just work….